Mystical Illusions.

Sunday, November 22, 2009

Everything has come to a close at last.
Gosh maybe the sudden emptiness will kick in soon.
But like my inner mind knows everything ended,
All the late nights has finally weighed on me.
Tireds + sleepy all day through.
All e whirlly polly thingy.
Goshs!
Yups Reflections is over after 3 months of skiving through all the showss!
Now i need get that FYP and SIFE Alive!
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And Tmr is that special day.
I so look forward to it after 1 week of so called camping in school,
But i guess in just an instant convo.
It POOF* away.
Your busy with your school stuff.
I guess its like a vice versa thing.
I guess when you see it that way,
we don't see or know what's happening on each side of our life.
And that really hurts.
It feels like we're just friends or total strangers.
5 mins convo each time we hold e phone,
less than 10 msgs a day.
Can't hold a happy convo each time.
I don't feel you no more.
I look in the mirror its just me alone.
To fight all e battles of life.
To have emptiness and reality kicking in.
Weekdays u can't be arud, weekends ur normally busy.
When will be the right time then.
It's the feeling to me that tis is some long dist. thing or ur overseas studying.
I guess school is more important now. I feel insignificant in your presence.
I don't like that feeling.
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Rahhs =( .
Guilt is kicking in !
I'm Sorry Rafael.
My bad =(
Didn't mean to make you upset or mad or sad!
And I didn't mean to cheat your feelings at all!
Rahh i so hate making my friends upset.
Esp those Rare and Great ones.
Those that make each day of your life a Happy one.
Goshh =(
I so didn't mean to laugh at him GOSHHss!!! =(
I wouldn't say I'm not me at the moment, is just the chicky part of me arose.
Hate the point that I can't control my laughs and feelings when my feelings get over me.
And i'm not faulting it , its me , what to do hai =(
Stupid me come up at the wrong moment.
Hai, My bad My fault!
Should use the brain more often then this wouldn't have happen.
Haii dunno what to do about that.
His fuming about it =(.
I'm so bad at apologiess... =( Haiisss =(
WHAT TO DO NOW AHH =(

mystical illusions. 12:13 AM ♥